PHILIP, I KNEW THE DAY WOULD COME WHEN CAMERON WOULD ASK ABOUT YOU. BUT HE IS ONLY 5 YEARS OLD WHY NOW. IT IS TOO SOON. HE ASK ME THE OTHER DAY WHY YOU DID NOT COME SEE HIM LIKE OTHER DADS DO THEIR KIDS. I TOLD HIM YOU WERE IN HEAVEN. HE ASK ME HOW YOU DIED. I LIED AND TOLD HIM YOU WENT TO SLEEP. WHAT ELSE CAN I DO. HE ACCEPTED THAT STORY FOR NOW. HIS RESPONSE WAS THAT THE MICE PUT SOMETHING IN YOUR FOOD TO MAKE YOU DIE. WHERE THAT CAME FROM I HAVE NO CLUE. I TOLD HIM NOT TO WORRY THAT YOU WERE WATCHING OVER HIM AND SAW EVERYTHING HE DOES. THAT YOU WERE AN ANGEL. PHILIP I WISH YOU HAD OF SAW THAT YOU HAD A WONDERFUL LIFE AHEAD OF YOU INSTEAD OF THE DESPAIR YOU FELT THAT NIGHT YOU TOOK YOUR LIFE. I LOVE YOU BABY AND STILL MISS YOU AS MUCH AS EVER. YOUR MOMMA