Philip, It is so hard to believe that this Friday you have been gone 10 years. There is not a day goes by that I do not miss you. You missed so much by leaving us. I will not be hypocritical and say it has all been good. Sometime I realize that living was so much more painful for you than what we all understood. I will never condone committing suicide as the answer. There are so many ways to overcome tragedy in our lives without taking our own lives. I will say that I now know that it only takes one person to send you over the edge. Heidi Bailey was that person for you. I hope that she has enjoyed her life. She will always be the murderer of my son. Her selfishness and her deceit cost us so many precious days of your life. I tell every young lady I see to be cautious when you use young men just to get attention. It might someday cause someone to give up on life. If you check out the statistics most suicides are over a person being used by the opposite sex and hurt beyond repair. You were loved by so many and it is hard for me to accept our love was not enough. I know that you lost your battle but I know that you are now safe with God. No one will ever hurt you again. On this 10 year Heaven Anniversary I will NOT celebrate your Death. I will celebrate that you found PEACE. I love you and I know I will see you again. Your Brother Jay and my soul mate Keith has been my lifeline all these years since you have been gone. You would be so proud and I think you knew they would take care of me. On a funny note. You told Keith the first time you met him and I quote "If you hook up with my Mother you better be good to her". Keith's response was something funny. I cannot recall it at this time. It embarrassed the heck out of me because Keith and I had only know each other for a week. Well Son you must have saw something in the way we were together. We have been together ever since. Jay and Keith have made sure I have been taken care of. I am a strong woman but losing a Son in the way you left me took a part of my heart away. That part has been filled with love from Jay and Keith. They are amazing men. Even though they were hurting so much themselves they took care of me. Your Son Cameron is a precious little man. He has been told about you and we will continue to keep your memory alive. Until I see you again. I love you Philip